one more chance

i cannot change the world, i cannot heal it, i cannot even fathom it. i am glad that i cannot understand. if i could, i imagine i would only cradle my head in my hands. i thank you God for my light yoke, for my small piece of the puzzle. i am sorry for my... Continue Reading →



in the blackness all I have is Your hand so don't pat me on the head and tell me it will all be all right don't shrink my head and tell me to try harder don't tell me I'm not enough don't tell me I'm just fine tell me the truth take me away lead... Continue Reading →

dear depression

Dear Depression,If we are to get along together as roommates, there must be rules in place. First, so long as we abide in this glass house, we shall not cast stones. Second, don't interrupt me or finish my sentences--it pisses me off. In return, I won't talk over you, but allow you to speak your... Continue Reading →


I carry it with me wherever I go this heavy, heavy thing that indebts every breath demands every waking second withholds sleep and denies me all rest I carry it with me into the quiet places into the busy peopled places into the secret places all my own wherever I am, there it is this... Continue Reading →

the grist for their grind

we grit out the daily grind between the mortar and pestle of a society possessed by opposing fantasies of the working poor— one shimmering with all the promise of a verdant green mirage exposed as the grinning skull of the desert-starved and dune-thirsted weary traveller; the other a passionate fist pounding down all the judgment... Continue Reading →


God, forgive me for shattering myself against You. or rather the graven image I made for You, shaped with all the tongue-biting concentration of a two-year-old with her first crayon. You were trying to say something to the world when You made me, something about joy and grace. but these days I'm afraid all I... Continue Reading →


it's a damn long drive back to ohio with every mile marker a reminder of what I'm leaving behind. everybody wants to talk about the big things, the declarations and the rose-petaled bedspreads. but I've got those sunrise cups of coffee on my mind, the subtle touch our words put to things, eyes glimmering with... Continue Reading →

i’ve only got so much to give

look, i'm real sorry i can't hear you over the roar of my anxieties. it's awful crowded here in my head these days and your voice didn't quite make the cut when it came time for the attention triage. too bad, i thought i heard you say something about peace and quiet, and rest. sweet rest.... Continue Reading →

perfect timing

Look, she says.  This can’t go on forever. What do you mean?  you say. This is getting ridiculous, she says. You look down at the model train engine in your hands, grimed with your sweaty fingerprints and three hours of meticulous labor. I don’t think it’s ridiculous, you mumble. She puts one hand on a... Continue Reading →

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